DAY 7 OF 103.

Its Tuesday. Not even a full week since deleting my social media apps and I’m already starting to stress out. Yea, the quiet definitely helps my mind, the disconnect from all of the bad news feels good, but knowing that my absence might affect getting work is scary. Social media just increases the, “Out of sight, out of mind” theory. Will I be forgotten? Will people think I closed? It already feels like it’s affecting my income….but I have to remember why I did this. Even as I type this, I’m asking myself why Im even making this blog entry…. who will even read it? You have to subscribe to read these and no one has subscribed… maybe them inner thoughts were right, I am washed… no one really cares and all of this is for nothing.

I guess that’s the crazy part of this…so I’ll continue to write regardless of how pointless it may feel.

This past weekend we had our 5th Annual Good Human Day. I had just driven to Tennessee the day prior to celebrate a friend Army promotion and to Alabama that morning to pick up food for the event, I was exhausted to say the least. The clouds were forming, but it wasn’t supposed to rain. Unfortunately, by the time the event started, the rain did as well. It wasn’t a crazy pouring rain, just a light drizzle… but enough for me to cancel. My daughter refused to let the rain stop the show, so we went through with the event and “danced in the rain”. Last year, it rained so we rescheduled it for a later day and it ended up being 98 degrees, no good seating or shade, and not a lot of people showed up. Not gonna lie, its super frustrating when you put a lot of money, energy and time into something FREE for others and it doesn’t go as expected or people just don’t show up… or even text to apologize for missing it.

I take that kinda personal because I rarely ask for support for my initiatives.

Anyways, today is Tuesday and I got my work done by 3pm, I have instrumental music playing on the iPad while I type this. My mind is all over the place and Im fighting the urge to just crawl back in bed and go back to sleep. But, just like I challenged myself to post once a day before leaving social media, Im challenging myself to post once a week here for the rest of the year….Even if Im the only person that reads these.